I have read a million self help books...evidently none have worked, so I have decided to blog my feelings...couldn't hurt.
I have been "messed up for a while and when I say messed up I don't mean drugs or anything like that. Just a very confused person that has made alot of bad choices and pay for that every day.So I'm gonna try this, I fill like I have failed as a mom is some ways but then again I have wonderful children so I couldn't have done that bad.....I all started about 6 years ago. My kids were leaving home starting their new lives and all me and Barry did was fight..all the time. We were in church really big, I was sunday school teacher, play director, childrens director. Barry was Deacon, and sunday school teacher. He was very involved in the church....which was great for a while...but then it just go so much I guess I got jealous of all he was into.I felt like the kids didn't need me and he didn't either....crazy I know....anyway I started staying at the daycare alot at night working, then lost weight and was walking about 2 miles every night with one of my employees and friends. She had been seeing this "other" man for years and she was married. She told me about a friend she had that was really nice and we should just talk. I said ok. and thats when it started.........
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